continuum

its been a month and 6 days since i last blogged

life is shitty shit shit

i miss him so much everyday without a doubt

i thought i had alot of people there for me, and i do but some people really surprise me, not in a good way. and its sad that i have to say that

i can't get through a day without crying and im just waiting to get out of this circle

i feel lonely and unwanted even though i know in my mind i'm neither of those things

this sadness just seems everlasting

however john mayer is helping me

i'll tell you when things brighten up a bit

oh HAI

well blogger it's been 4 days

i could sit here and describe all my emotions and feeelings but to be quite honest i don't want to bore you with my cheesey loveydovey merrrrde

but i've had quite a good few days in your absence (nothing personal)

had a nice meal for gemmas birthday and even though ive started recently finding meals quite tedious, i enjoyed it mucho, then we went on to fashion show where we all sat and ogled naked boys, and depressed and naked girls (but we dun care about the girls)

last night was fun, and so so so lovely to be reunited for the first time in a long time with the original 8, and and sad as it seems i don't think it will be just us 8 again for even longer.

however the nights proceedings were very enjoyable. i befriended my boyfriend's best friend, got very very drunk and hankypanky'd in the bath

however today im feeling minggg and have eaten my body weight in crap, but the boyf is due to arrive anytime soon so all is not bad

YAY FOR LIFE

Day 02 - Reason why you started the blog

hmmmmmmmm
i started it over a year ago, when a few of my friends started venting and i became jealous!
it seemed like a gud way to word ma feeelinz. as gay as that may be!
i did it on and off for about 8 months, then stopped completely this summer.
now the cold months have returned, blogger again has become my source of heat and rant, and quite frankly ive realised why i used to do it so often.
so now you know my blogging history, i'll let you get on with your own boring lives instead of feeding off mine. fiends.
xxxxxxxxxxxx

oh dear

somethinng really embarrassing happened today.
a couple of nights ago in an act of lust and gayness, i set my desktop background as a picture of my and my boyfriend. knowing that he was coming round today, i made plans to change it before he set his eyes upon my cheesiness.
to sum it up, i completely forgot about it until there was something he wanted to show me on youtube. + to make it even worse i rugby tackled him to the floor in attempts to distract him from the holy picture.
i did not hear the end of how "embarrassing" i am all night.

he doesn't appreciate my love...
BUT apart from that i had a lovely lovely love filled night, and im thriving off that feeling which i can't stop smiling.
i think we can safely say he makes me a very happy blogger

goodnight my gorgeous followers xxx

LETS GO!

heck yeah tumblr challenges!

meant for tumblr but who gives a fuck?

Day 01 - Photo of you along with ten facts

this is me, so now i bore you with 10 facts!

#1 -i have 2 older sisters. they're both fat.

#2 - WGC is my hometown. it's shit.

#3 - there is nothing i enjoy more than a good summer holiday

#4 - SORRY, last ones a massive lie, skiing is my fave thing in the whole wide world + i wish i could live on a mountain

#5 - two-faced people is my worst thing ever, but everyone is guilty of it really

#6 - i cry too much

#7 - boys who can sing melt my heart

#8 - ^^ my boyfriend can't sing but he still manages it

#9 - i sing in 5 different choirs

#10 - i found this far too hard, my life is very boring as you can see

oh hiya

long time no see
realised that blogger is a very easy way to vent even if no one is listening, i can just pretend

things that are happening actually really scare me, the prospect of if i don't work now, i'll fail my alevels, have to drop out and go to college. as tempting as that sounds, my whole life is in the hands of what i do now, to work or not to work - that is the question.
everything is mental i don't even know what is going on really. aalll i know is that there is a handful of real friends i have in my life right now, and if im being completely honest, bridgefoot is getting me through!

lotsa new tings are happening with me but i didnt realise there would be this many drawbacks one week in? howeverrr i get a feeling i'm in for the long haul so prepare yourself, fellow bloggers for beaucoup de feelings from this blog machine!

byesies

round and round

nothing is happening
but then, if you look into it alot of things are happening, but it's all the same stuff over and over again i'm so bored of this!
literally stuck in this cycle. but really it's not that bad, i don't care much?
i've realised who i can pour my heart out to, and the people that i can tell everything to oh my god i've just realised how much i love you all
i took you for granted but you are all fucking amazing i couldn't be happier to be honest i'm sorry for being so rubbish in the past, even though i know none of you are going to read this.


exams are looming. i need to start revision but i just keep on putting it off more and more
i'll regret it in 5 months.

i haven't blogged in ages, there's nothing to say.
but i have also realised that i should only trust really few people and i need to stop getting myself into these stupid situations and trusting people that really really shouldn't be trusted
i'm too naive hahaha