contemplation

why have i let things get like this?
this whole situation is just verging on ridiculous, and nobody actually understands meee
if i tell someone about it and us, they either just laugh in my face or tell me to man up
i'm such a fucking dick and it PISSES ME OFF
i honestly need to man up, and the worst thing is, whever i think of you together i get the biggest wave of jealousy and nostalgia and regret it makes me angry at myself
and i feel so stupid
and its all because of you, and i dont even understand
and just allow it


also, my haircut sucks